My Life, that was never Mine

What do I see, that I saw
Life that was built on fantasies
My world as it appeared
The journey that ultimately manifested

Striving to work toward the life I saw
Foregoing the joys in the life that was
Forgetting this is life too, today,
Tomorrow looked prettier and I worked a little harder

What did I gain, that I had assumed lost
Tunes and it's lyrics that did not sync
Life and it's story that belonged to me,
That I longed for it to weave together

Belonged to another was mine,
All that was mine, I refused to accept
What the world was, I yearned for
As the world continued to seek mine

Hoping for happiness, discontent with satisfaction
Defined not by smiles that bring tears
Nor loud laughter that never seized
I look back today, what do I see?

Life filled with joy, World discontent with their own
Seeking the lyrics for my tune,
Forgetting that what was my own, 

Words and music that formed a song

I look back... I see the lives
Of missed happiness, Unaccepted love
Longing moments, uncherished memories
Life that was my own, that never belonged to me...

Fly Away Home

I've left my nest and flown far
I look back hoping to see my future
A ray of hope, a silver lining
A future that gives me my nest

Hopes Together

We are asking you

The request for you to say yes

We yearn for that day

That truly brings us together

We love you, we respect you

Moments with you are cherished,

Moments to be with you are dreamed

And yet, you refuse

One nod, one smile, one yes

A hope still burning wild in us

We look to you with eyes filled with dreams

For you to see it, for you to accept it

We know it is difficult for you

A life lived too long this way

For you don't know of life our way

And yet, we know it is not impossible for you

The world knows it, accepts it

It has been done, 

Even when you say no

But we wait..we wait because of our hope

No, we don't need you

We dont need your nod or your smile

We want you, because we know

We are because of you

We stand tall and speak to you

Because you showed us how

You taught us to have strength

Values that we should believe in

So here we are, asking you

Rooted in our values, our strength,

Our love.

With hopes still burning wild in us

For one nod, one smile, one yes from you.

Strong Hopes

There you are, across the seas
Tides so high, waves so soft
The mountains so tall, my sight so faint
Hopes so strong, strength so weak

My sight par the horizon,
In faint hopes to meet
Like the river, yearning to touch,
the soft sand on the shore

Nostalgic times become my life
Memories plenty, life so little
Survival is all I have,
Until the day we meet again

The nourishment, the love
None of that is here, my love
The passion for you, the yearning I have
For that one feel, one touch of you

Your aroma so divine, your words of music
The touch of you, the warmth you share
You taught me to love,
you built the passion in me... For you

Years passed by, time stood still
Your beauty vivid in me,
My love for you is all I have
One sight of you, is all I ask

Miles away, in a world so alien
I seek, I strive, I look to a day to unite
not because you gave me all I have
because you showed me what I have

Words don't do justice
To explain the melancholy in me
For happiness is with you,
Until the day I meet you again,

Each day passes in the hope to meet
My good old love, my beloved country

Beliefs Surreal

Parallel worlds that never meet
Conflicted I am, what is real, what is not
To where we belong, where I am
The worlds so different

One's void fulfilled by the other
One's abundance, making up for the lost
Always a battle of what is,
what isn't 

Is it what I don't see, the known
Or what I know, that still remains a stranger

Is it the faith, or the fact
Where a million words cannot replace,
A single sparkle of imagination
With a tint of love

A million rays of shine
It is, yet just a reflection of particles
A manifestation of the hues that form

And yet the eye glitters
With wonder, a sense of amazement

For it is not just a particle, but a creation
A wonder known and yet mysterious
Perhaps derived and yet created

From the known through the ignorant
Or vice versa

Unreal is it, real it is
Perhaps surreal
The creation, the manifestation.

First Work of Art

"Vakra-Tunndda Maha-Kaaya Surya-Kotti Samaprabha

Nirvighnam Kuru Me Deva Sarva-Kaaryessu Sarvadaa"

O Lord Ganesha, of Curved Trunk, Large Body, and with the Brilliance of a Million Suns, 

Please Make All my Works Free of Obstacles, Always.

I am, Because of You

I don't remember the first time you held me

I can't recall the feeling when we met

When you first saw my Tears, Rejoiced my smile

I don't have a story of us,

And yet that doesn't leave a void in me

For I've known you as much as I've known myself

Ever since I've existed in this world

It is inevitable but for me to take your presence for granted

It is you I opened my eyes to,

You who I walked towards,

Raised my arms to for an embrace

I am, because of you,

It is part of your life I carry in me

Years have gone by, and yet you remain

You are there in me, In my soul

It is because of you that I exist

For I am because of you

When I close my eyes and think of how much I need you,

I always open my Eyes to see you

Am bereft of words to be able to thank you,

It's more than the gratitude

It is the faith I've had in you, in me

In my existence because of you

In the laughter we share,

In the tears we shed

In the songs we sing

The lyrics we forget

To every second that made us love each other more

To every thought of mine with you,

And yours in me

All I can think of, is how lucky I am,

To have you

To whom if I close my eyes in need of you

I am sure I'll open my eyes to see you

Like it’s always been, my dearest mom

Love you Di.