My Life, that was never Mine

What do I see, that I saw
Life that was built on fantasies
My world as it appeared
The journey that ultimately manifested

Striving to work toward the life I saw
Foregoing the joys in the life that was
Forgetting this is life too, today,
Tomorrow looked prettier and I worked a little harder

What did I gain, that I had assumed lost
Tunes and it's lyrics that did not sync
Life and it's story that belonged to me,
That I longed for it to weave together

Belonged to another was mine,
All that was mine, I refused to accept
What the world was, I yearned for
As the world continued to seek mine

Hoping for happiness, discontent with satisfaction
Defined not by smiles that bring tears
Nor loud laughter that never seized
I look back today, what do I see?

Life filled with joy, World discontent with their own
Seeking the lyrics for my tune,
Forgetting that what was my own, 

Words and music that formed a song

I look back... I see the lives
Of missed happiness, Unaccepted love
Longing moments, uncherished memories
Life that was my own, that never belonged to me...